I can't believe i'm actually writing this, it's been a few months since i've last written a post. I doubt anyone is reading anymore, even my "Guardian Cross" ( Phone app game )Blog has more view than this!

This year was really unexpected, or should i say expected but i just refused to see it was coming. Started the new year off with JJ and eventually ended "us" within a few weeks. It was pretty much expected, i could actually feel that he was losing interest in me etc. It was pretty hurting but i still held on tightly to the relationship, hoping he would change his mind somehow. And, to tell you the truth, the feeling sucked real bad, to love someone so much and having them treat you indifferently or even saying to the extent of saying insensitive,hurtful stuffs. There were many times i tried to hold back my tears after stuffs he said to me, and he didn't even realised it. I tried ... So badly, tried to salvage the r/s...
I guess it didn't worked out, and i had to let go.
There's no deny that i actually enjoyed the times i spent with him, and these memories will always be a part of me. I guess couples are always happiest when they first start off, but ... Sigh im hurting just writing this haha. 

 Anyways, i'm really glad that i have friends around me, giving me the support i needed. And i pretty much convinced myself that i'm fine without him. It was pretty hard for the first few days because i was so attached and used to his presence that i actually felt lost and empty when he left, but i was feeling pretty okay at the end of the week. I'm an Aries, what to say x)

Chinese New Year was pretty enjoyable, finally got to take a break from the hectic school life and went back to Malaysia. Totally loved the fireworks, enjoyed them with my family. Sometimes you really dont need a lover to feel loved. In the end, your family will always be there for you. No one else, so cherish them !

-ENDING OFF WITH A SELF SHOT HAHA-